Submit. It doesn’t sound difficult so why is it? I’m finding the ongoing battle with my thoughts exhausting. How easily my gaze focuses on what I don’t have, how difficult life is, how overwhelming it is to be a single parent, the list goes on and on. I am frustrated with the thoughts, the stupidity and I become resistant to God and plummet into self-pity.
It happens so quickly and I stay there for days rebelling against everything. I am miserable and depressed, complaining and snippy. My good friend, Marian asked me, “are you praying about this?” And in that moment the light goes on and I realize, no I haven’t prayed… I’ve only complained!
As I began to pray, my Heavenly Father, in His kindness, shows me that I am unhappy with where He has placed me, the life He has ordained for me. Do I trust Him? Do I trust His goodness? Am I willing to walk and live this life He has assigned me? This is HIS plan not mine. I don’t understand it, and some days I don’t like His plan, but will I trust it?
I think I will but still, a piece of my heart is holding out. Then I read Philippians 1:27 “be sure… that your manner of life is worthy of the Gospel.” I haven’t been living worthy of the Gospel… I’ve been complaining! When Jesus hung on the cross dying for me, He did not complain. He willingly gave His life to rescue me from this very sin! My gratitude for what Christ did MUST change my view of this life. And when my view is correctly focused it changes everything.
The circumstances are the same, nothing there has changed. But my hope has changed. My hope is no longer in how comfortable my life is or what I have but in my Savior and what He has accomplished on my behalf. Not only for this life but for the life to come. In this moment of submission to the plan that God has sovereignly willed for me, I am no longer depressed and miserable. I have hope and joy and peace and strength and resolve! Just like that, in an instant! After days of struggle, misery, and fighting, God changes it all in an instant.
I’m incredibly grateful that my Savior is so patient with me and loves me. I am also thankful for the many wonderful people in my life that help me walk through the good, the bad and the ugly. I am submitting to His sovereign will and plan for my life and desire to live in a manner worthy of the Gospel!
Hope. Strength. Peace.
Liz Beck, President, Redeemed2Repeat, Inc.
When people reach out for help or are mandated by the court to receive help, the first thought is “they need to sober up.” We will not deny that sobriety is important. Scripture commands us to be sober. However, we see many people who get “sober” but are still finding life frustrating and overwhelming. They gain lawful employment, begin raising their children and live as responsible members of society, but life is lacking.
Dr. Phil has a quote that I really like. After listening to a troubled person explain their situation and what they have done to mend it he asks, “and how is that working out for you?” It’s here where the person admits that life is not going according to plan. Their attempts have left them wanting. God, as a loving Father, asks us many times in scripture to “consider your ways.” One of these is found in Haggai. God’s people were sent into exile for their sin, but in His faithfulness, He brings them back. Upon their return, they work diligently “setting up shop.”.
They build houses, plant vegetation, get their stock up to par and try to get back all that was lost. They are aware of God’s faithfulness to them and that He is their God. However, they focused more on their life in the land than on their God. Haggai 1:7-11 Thus says the LORD of hosts: “Consider your ways. Go up to the hills and bring wood and build the house, that I may take pleasure in it and that I may be glorified,” says the LORD. “You looked for much, and behold, it came to little. And when you brought it home, I blew it away. Why? “declares the LORD of hosts. “Because of my house that lies in ruins, while each of you busies himself with his own house. Therefore the heavens above you have withheld the dew, and the earth has withheld its produce. And I have called for a drought on the land and the hills, on the grain, the new wine, the oil, on what the ground brings forth, on man and beast, and on all their labors.”
One of the heartbreaks we have as leaders and disciplers, is when a recovering addict attends only to get their “life” back. They are tired of exile but have no zeal for God. They find that sobriety does bring some perks (ie, custody of child(ren), job, housing, food), but they believe that is all that is needed. We have watched many people come in excited about this new gospel and life only to watch them meander away when the ”perks” are obtained. We then see them back complaining of feeling bored and empty. Struggles begin to raise their ugly heads and all of a sudden they are disillusioned with their new-found sobriety. At this time we must gently encourage them to see that “life” is their god and “meeting” was their gospel. They have exchanged their idol, drugs or other substances, for the American dream.
We work tirelessly to remind, encourage, exhort and admonish all who walk into our groups, that sobriety is of secondary importance, that the perks and goals of establishing a “normal” life are secondary goals. Their first and most vital need is salvation. Jesus did not come to make people sober. He came to take the Father’s wrath from us and offer us forgiveness and a restored relationship with the Father. If and when they realize they need Jesus and salvation, we then teach them that Jesus is now their focus and knowing Him is the goal.
God may see fit to grant them their desires, but He may not. Just as God called out to His people through Haggai to reorder their priorities, we do the same. May we remember, as we are prone to forget, that God and His kingdom are our focus.
Nothing else will do!
Co-leader, My Hope for Addiction, Metro
Imagine years of living in a fog. No direction, no purpose. Using a substance to alter you so you don’t have to feel. You give up happy just so you don’t have to feel sad. And each day you lose a little of who you are, you lose the ability to make decisions, you think you are doing well, when all around you relationships are being destroyed, your family is falling apart and you aren’t functioning in the normal, everyday activities of life.
Then, abruptly your only source of strength, your best friend, your comfort is taken away. You now have to face the realities that you so desperately want to avoid. You have to be responsible. Maybe you are a parent who now has to relate with your children and rebuild destroyed trust.
You look at this new world and can’t imagine how to even begin. You can’t go back to your old life because you will die. But you don’t know how to take the next step. Everyone around you seems to have a perfect life and you can’t dream of your life ever getting better. This is all so overwhelming. This, and more, is what people face every day in their journey to sobriety.
How do they actually live?
Will you join us?
This is an actual text sent to one of our team…
“Hey, I just needed to talk to you about some stuff. I’d call you but can’t bring myself to spit it out. Something about hearing myself talk about it makes me sick. I’m so lost. I just want to be numb. The only way I know how. It’s been hell this past month and it’s nothing I can escape. I’m so weak. All I want are pills because I know in that moment I won’t feel pain, I won’t feel emotion. To read more, you can download our June Newsletter.
Signs of Drug Dependence
Tolerance: Over time, a need for more drugs to feel the same effects. Do they use more drugs now than they used before? Do they use more drugs than other people without showing obvious signs of intoxication?
Withdrawal: As the effect of the drugs wear off, the person may experience withdrawal symptoms: anxiety or jumpiness; shakiness or trembling; sweating, nausea and vomiting; insomnia; depression; irritability; fatigue or loss of appetite and headaches. Do they use drugs to steady the nerves, stop the shakes in the morning? Drug use to relieve or avoid withdrawal symptoms is a sign of addiction. In severe cases, withdrawal from drugs can be life-threatening and involve hallucinations, confusion, seizures, fever, and agitation (medical attention may be necessary).
Loss of Control: Using more drugs than they wanted to, for longer than they intended, or despite telling themselves that they wouldn’t do it this time.
Desire to Stop, But Can’t: They have a persistent desire to cut down or stop their drug use, but all efforts to stop and stay stopped, have been unsuccessful.
Neglecting Other Activities: Spending less time on activities that used to be important to them (hanging out with family and friends, exercising or going to the gym, pursuing hobbies or other interests) because of the use of drugs.
Drugs Take Up Greater Time, Energy and Focus: They spend a lot of time using drugs, thinking about it, or recovering from its effects. They have few, if any, interests, social or community involvements that don’t revolve around the use of drugs.
Continued Use Despite Negative Consequences: They continue to use drugs even though they know it’s causing problems. The person may realize that their drug use is interfering with ability to do their job, is damaging their marriage, making problems worse, or causing health problems, but they continue to use.
My name is Robert Beck. Although I have never used substances I certainly know the affects addiction has on a family. As a young child I have some good memories with my dad, however many of my memories are not so good. I had blind hope that my dad and our lives would just “get better” someday. The promise my dad made to me, that our family would stay together, not to worry or that things would work themselves out was the only thing I had to hold onto. Our family staying together didn’t happen. In fact, the dysfunction in our family ended with divorced parents when I was a teenager. I wasn’t capable at such a young age of seeing the impact that this addiction had on our family and on my mom. As I grew older I went from naive and hopeful to recognizing the manipulation and understanding what my mom had been dealing with for years. More times than I can count, we experienced frightening situations with my dad. I remember one time my older sister and I had to go to a nearby park to wait out my dad’s drunkenness, until someone could come pick us up. Every few months there would be an ordeal and many times, with an array of police and emergency vehicles at our home.
On my 11th birthday we had a situation with my dad and he ended up in the hospital. I was so disappointed that even on my birthday it ended up being all about my dad. My mom had been reaching out to friends in our church and building relationships for support through this difficult time. I remember thinking that this was a really sad way to remember my birthday. However, our friends, the Tong family, came over with pizza and a birthday cake and spent the rest of the evening with us. They interrupted their own family plans and sacrificed for us. They made a bad day special for me and I will always be grateful for the care and love they showed us.
Shortly after my parents divorced, there was a family birthday gathering at a local restaurant. My dad arrived and we had a confrontation. I was old enough to process everything that had gone on for years and I exploded in public on my dad. I realized I needed help to deal with the anger and disappointment I’d felt for so long. Again Steve Tong, reached out to me and we began meeting every week. I also had a few other men in my life who helped to point me to the Lord. I needed men in my life. I was craving relationships and love and God put these men in my path. God began to work in my heart and all the bitterness that had taken root in my life slowly began to fade. I learned that I would never have real peace in my life if I didn’t forgive my father. Through a lot of prayer, hard work and the discipleship from these men, God was changing me from the inside out. I was being set free from the sin in my heart towards my dad. The Lord was removing the weight I had been carrying for so long. Two years later after having no contact with my dad, I saw him at the same restaurant for the same birthday celebration. I was anxious about seeing him considering what had occurred the last time. Surprisingly, I felt a compassion for him. I had changed so much and grown in my relationship with Jesus that I now had a desire to love him. I desired for him to be free from his addiction and find true freedom in Christ. The dinner went well and we were able to talk and catch up. We have since met in person a few times and my heart towards him is changed. He has started to reach out to me and we communicate weekly. My dad has been in and out of rehab many times and is currently in a sober living home. I pray for him often. The biggest area of growth in my life is trusting in God and not man. I realize that I couldn’t trust my dad growing up and it caused me to struggle to trust God, but through this ordeal I know who my father is. It is the Lord. He will never leave me, never disappoint me and He always remains the same. He is teaching me to love and forgive my earthly father.
After all this, I would never have thought I would want to have anything to do with addiction. But God had other plans. My mom, Liz Beck, began Redeemed2Repeat a few years ago, a support group for recovering addicts to meet weekly and hear about this Jesus who can set them free from sin and the bondage of addiction. I started going with her mainly to support my mom in what she had become so passionate about. But soon, I too, felt comfortable being with other people who had struggled with addiction. I was on the other side though. My life has been affected by addiction and I can relate to the things people share. It has also helped me to understand my father’s struggles better. One meeting, a man was talking about how he wanted to pick up where he left off with his son. This man had spent some time in prison. I shared with him that restoration takes time and that his son has been hurt by his addiction just as I had with my dad. Repairing relationships doesn’t happen overnight. I really feel like I have something to bring to the meetings, a different experience in addiction. I leave the meetings feeling refreshed and feel as though I belong. I am building friendships with other men in the group and I look forward to going each week.
Recently we experienced a very challenging situation in our family. It was an emotional time and I was struggling with how to process what had happened. The same day on my way to work, I past an accident where a motorcyclist was killed. I was so shaken up and emotionally drained. I arrived at work and thankfully was sent home to deal with all that had happened. My mom and I went straight to the Tong’s house for counsel and prayer. We spent three hours with them. I left encouraged, reminded that God ‘s plans are for my good and that He is with me. He loves and cares for me especially in trials. The next morning, on my way to church there was a man wandering the neighborhood. He was clearly on drugs and was unable to find his house. I stopped and had much compassion for him. I wanted to help him find his way home. I did what I could and arrived at church late. I sat next to my mom and shortly after, I received a text from one of the guys from the Redeemed2Repeat meeting. He said “I just felt I should reach out to you to encourage you that whatever your going through, God loves you and cares for you.” This man knew nothing of what happened over the past two days. I was overwhelmed. God used him to remind me of His great love for me in my time of need. What an amazing God!
Today I am changed, different then I was, and growing in my faith. I never thought Redeemed2Repeat would be such an important part of my life. I hope to be able to help children of addicts with my experiences and help them to find hope in Christ. My relationship with my mom is priceless. We have grown close and we both want to share the truth of the gospel.
God has used His work in other people to encourage me and I have been changed in the process.
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What difference does it make if Redeemed2Repeat exists? What impact is really being made? It isn’t enough to simply report that 15-21 people each week are attending the support group meeting in Gilbert. What does that matter?
This is why is It matters… Because Redeemed2Repeat is here, reaching people with the hope of the gospel of Jesus Christ, four mothers are now being responsible for a total of nine children. A short time ago these moms were living irresponsibly, bringing harm and damage to their families while being consumed by addiction. One of these moms now has the joy of being grandma to her two grandchildren. There are children who are not in the care of the state because their mothers are now sober and living for the Lord. Three men are no longer absent from their children’s lives (representing seven children and one grandchild). Families are being restored and rebuilt, people have the support they need to face the wreckage they have caused and are learning how to live life without substances. There are many who have stable jobs and are paying taxes and tithes. People are finding their place in their local churches and beginning to serve those churches.
This is why we are here. This is why we walk with people in darkness so they can live in the light, where Christ brings weary hearts and souls hope, assurance, wisdom, strength and courage to remain steadfast and faithful, perseverance to fight to do the hard work necessary to overcome addiction. They are living life to please another, the Lord, and no longer living for themselves.
Two weeks ago, I received a call from a father looking for help for his 40 year old daughter who was struggling with an alcohol addiction. He agreed to bring his daughter the next day to our weekly support group meeting so we could visit and determine the next best steps for her. He hung up the phone filled with hope that he had found a gospel-centered option. The next morning he called me. The night before, the same day we spoke, his daughter passed away. Overdose. This devastated father kept saying, “It was only one more day.” He encouraged me to “Keep doing what you are doing. Don’t quit. People need help.” This is why Redeemed2Repeat exists and is active in the pursuit of broken and hurting people every single day. People are dying and hopeless, depressed and captive. They see no way out of addiction. Such a tragic and sad loss and we didn’t even get to meet her. This is exactly why we press on, seeking out those who need help and freedom from addiction.
Please continue to pray for Redeemed2Repeat as we continue to reach broken people. The game changer is Christ and Christ alone. Freedom in Christ = Freedom from addiction. As sure as Christ rose and overcame death, there is always hope to overcome addiction. We are connecting the desire to change with the power to change!
Thank you for the way you prayerfully support Redeemed2Repeat. Your prayers are our first line of defense. And, thank you for your financial partnership that keeps us on the front lines against the enemy.
Because of Christ,